Almost Packed...

I haven't been this nervous since I don't know when. It has been hard to breathe today. And no amount of puffing on my inhaler today will fix it. There is nothing about an international adoption that is easy but I'm not worried about these last few hurdles we have to jump through. I'm trembling at the thought that in about 20 days I will have in my possession a little 20 month old boy. In about 30 days I will be his MOM. I will be responsible for knowing where he is 24 hours a day for at least the next 16 years. I will be responsible for feeding him, teaching him, encouraging him, protecting him and...well...you can fill in the rest. I know I'm talking as if I'm raising this little boy by myself. And of course, I am NOT. Carl and I will raise Paul Daniel together. But I will be MOM. (And Carl is looking to me to know what to do!) I'll be okay. Don't worry. Just thought I would let you know I'm scared today - and it's hard to get stuff done when you just want to run and hide.

Carl has had to work all day and will have to work while we are on this trip. That's good and bad at the same time...but he has a job. So we aren't complaining.

Met with our agency over the phone this morning to prepare for our day in court.

Almost have our bags packed. Will finish up this evening when Carl gets home.

Thanks to Patrick and Misty for the ride to the airport in the morning.

Don't know when we'll have time to get on the computer on this first leg of the trip...you may not hear from us for a few days...but I'll be sure to resume the daily updates once we get to Siberia.

Thank you in advance for your prayers.